Welcome to the new blog! Life has certainly changed since the Sara*ndipity days, and that felt like it necessitated a new blog.
The biggest change other than my last name? This little guy.
Jacob Samuel Confino joined us two weeks early at the beginning of April and then EVERYTHING changed.
Those of you with kids are sitting there saying, “Well, duh.” I mean, I knew everything would be different, but I don’t think I quite realized the extent to which my life would be consumed by baby everything.
I also wasn’t prepared for how hard being a new mom is. Those first few months are intense–I joked that I lived in Room because I felt tethered to the house by breastfeeding issues. You frequently have no idea if what’s going on is normal or not–should his belly button look like that? WTF is that flakey stuff on his head? Is his poop supposed to look like that? Why is he hiccuping so much? Do I wake him up to feed him or let him sleep? The list is endless.
Everyone on social media makes it all look so easy. (I’m guilty of this too. Every picture I post of Jacob is smiling and perfect and makes it seem like I’m Super Mom. I’m not. I feel like Hot Mess Mom 90 percent of the time and Actually Pretty Decent Mom the rest of the time.)
This is where mom guilt comes in. Because you don’t want to ask anyone for help when they all seem like they have their lives perfectly together.
I turned to Google. Which is the norm for me–my mom jokes that she should have named me Google. (She frequently texts me and asks me to Google things for her. I point out that she could have typed that same query into Google with even less effort than it took to ask me to do it for her, but she claims I’m better at it than she is.) And while I found a lot of very helpful information out there (it’s how I accurately diagnosed my baby’s torticollis when my doctor missed it–more about that later), I also frequently fell into the black hole of misinformation that sent me spiraling into panic attacks about things I didn’t need to worry about.
Which leads me to the point of this blog. Yes, it’s a mommy blog. Yes, the mighty have fallen. Get over it. (And if you don’t get the title, here’s the reference. It works because there have already been a million mommy moments where I’ve felt the need to yell “Serenity now!”)
I’m only seven-and-a-half months in, so I’m not going to sit here and pretend I know everything, because I definitely don’t. But there’s a lot of stuff that I needed to hear and that I wish someone had told me when I was going through it.
So if anyone can learn from my experiences or feel like they’re not alone or just feel a sense of belonging, then cool, I’ve done my job. Or if you just want to feel some quality schadenfreude by seeing what my life is like behind the social media curtain, you can do that too.
Either way, enjoy!